As the parent of a young adult who leans into us for her support, my husband and I must make choices that will better both our lives and hers. To her, our choices may not always seem the best, but I hope our relationship will be strong enough and her trust that we love her will help her walk through these choices. We also need to be strong enough to face her anger, discomfort, and frustration with decisions made outside of her control. We are the parents.
Much has changed since I last wrote. My husband and I prayerfully decided it would be best for us to be closer to family so that we would have the support system in place for ourselves and should something happen to either of us, for our daughter. We waffled on the decision as it meant potential changes in our jobs, selling our home, moving more than a thousand miles away, finding new therapists and psychiatrists, plus all the other stresses of moving. Our daughter’s counselor strongly discouraged our move fearing we would not find the specialists we needed. But our faith in God propelled us forward.
Psalms 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
Be Still. Know that I am God. These became my personal battle cry as we faced this massive change in our lives. A change we decided to face, but the consequences were not our choice. I practiced being still when I didn’t know where we would live, when I didn’t know if my husband would be able to keep his job. I practiced being still when the counselor told us we should put our dog to sleep rather than re-home him at the age of 11. I was not so still when she said we wouldn’t find another counselor and doctor. I choose to be still when I realized I could lose my source of income, but it was a battle of doubt about my abilities and value to our ministry. I chose to be still when my daughter struggled with moving and leaving her friends. I stood in knowledge that God is God and chose to be still and let Him show us the way forward.
Now I stand on the other side of this major move; I stand exalting the God who will be exalted- who provided us a place to live, allowed us to continue our ministry work remotely, and brought a new counselor into our daughter’s live who is teaching her new coping skills. Our beautiful beagle has a home with people who care for him. God has taken care of every minute detail in this move and I have learned I can be still because He is God.